I drove so fast to get to one location and as I went, I passed signs for places I would have liked to stop. This was not my favorite way of traveling and it was an unnecessary way of doing it.
I can always appreciate the contrast of what I want and what I do not and this is no exception. So I explored for a few days and admit my mood was not the greatest. Without a doubt my mood was creating my perception of things. What intrigues me and comes to my awareness when this happens- when I am not feeling so happy in the moment- is how I still have wonderful experiences. Like my noticing so many people were smiling. Just smiling because. That's just about the best kind of smiling there is. Or a friendly conversation with the campground staff. All the driver's respecting the pedestrians and crosswalks. The beautiful bluff and nature I was surrounded by. There were still so many good things.
When you're telling a joke, timing is everything. If you rush it or say something incorrectly and have to explain, even if it is funny, it doesn't get the same laugh as when you're in the flow and it is easy and hilarious. That was what I did. I rushed to get somewhere and I was not fully aligned with it. My mood was less than ideal and I enjoyed it less.
So yesterday I left. I drove south along the coast at a pace I love, stopping here and there at a park, beach, downtown, and lighthouse. I saw two weddings! I saw houses and fields and cows and horses. I saw rabbits playing with each other, a deer poking its head out to see into the road, farm markets, birds. I felt the breeze and heard the sounds from the waves crashing. I saw so many folks stop to walk around and enjoy it for themselves whether for hours or just a brief stop.
I walked around an area where all my senses kicked in- the place had such energy and presence. I could feel the air and see the thickness of it, hear the waves, smell the water(which I at first thought totally smelled and felt like salt water though it was fresh), sense the earthy greens and soil... it reminded me of The Secret Garden as I climbed stone steps up among the trees.
Last night I found myself smiling as I drove. I felt it on my face and made a point to look at myself in the rear view mirror. The roads were flowing and I had a Great Lake to my left and fields to my right. Occasionally a car or few would come behind or from the other direction. They'd pass me and soon the road was open again. I loved the mix- the fields, the homes, the vastness. Then I'd drive through the little towns and see others here or there. I never got the sense it was empty or I was alone. I felt that people live here. Yet it wasn't busy. The radio news had even mentioned that roads were expected to be busier with the festival over the weekend. If this was busy, what was not?! :)
I drove through small towns with cool names like Alaska. I stopped at a lighthouse harbor and walked all the way out to the end and back. I watched at the beach in Algoma as people enjoyed the sand and swim.
The journey is the fun part. Taking a bite of something delicious and savoring it, recognizing its components and how beautifully they go together to create the whole. Carpe Vitam! Harvest life.
It's not about the destination. It never was. You can't get lost when you don't have a set place you are going. And my GPS will continue to guide me to the route no matter what turns I take.
Now I am parked in a beautiful setting. I can hear the highway noise from nearby. Yet I can see the field and grasses and watched the sky as it turned pink and purple and lovely shades this evening.
I walked some trails at a large park this morning and jumped when I realized eyes were watching me. I had passed by a fawn curled up on the path, just near the tall grass. I jumped and then it jumped. It would have just stayed resting, I bet, had I not been startled. It moved away and I said something along the lines of, "Wait. I didn't know you were there." And it waited, scratched its back, turned and looked at me. I snapped some pictures. I knelt down and thought it might come over to me, then thought it might be best not to have it so trusting of people. I'm sure it could tell the difference though as it was still so calm and seemed to take a liking to me. Then I left and kept walking. No clue where it was when I came back through. And I wondered how many times I pass things by without realizing as I hike and figured I probably do it every time.
And I didn't have to notice the people I see smiling, the curtesy of the drivers, the island type vibe of this peninsula I had visited. I wanted to, and so I did.
I want to notice more of these things and continue being aware of them and enjoy them when I do.
Not having a set place I was heading next was slightly getting to me. As I drove yesterday and today, today actually ending up rather different than I was first thinking and my current location other than I thought it would be, I noted how much I love the traveling part. It isn't about where I am going! I picked a place and meandered on my way there. It's the movement and discovery as I go that I so enjoy. I love the rendezvous along the way, the moments and people and animals and nature and experiences that I simply could not plan. It sometimes feels like I happen upon them yet my belief is that we meet up with each other because we are like magnets drawn together, open to the shared experience and connection. I can trust myself to feel my way and I can trust that there will always be a match to whatever it is I want and whatever it is I am feeling.
For now, I choose to feel better. And then better than that. And better than that. Better feels good.
There is something else regarding contrast that's been on my mind since the other day. I've summed it up:
The most fantastic thing this election is giving us is the incredible contrast of what so many of us do not want. The clarity gained from this on what we DO want is tremendous! And I remain optimistic about this election and steady in my knowing and belief in the wellbeing of our world.
(I'm voting for Gary Johnson, as I did in the last election. This adds further to the contrast- it feels great to be aligned with and excited for a candidate!)
Onward we go!